There’s a song I’ve been listening to a lot lately, called Pretty Day. The lyrics say “it’s going to be a pretty day for me. I throw my hands up in the air, I’m free”. Yesterday, I had the song on repeat because I truly felt free. I finally finished what seemed like the longest, most exhausting process of buying my own home, something I could have only ever dreamed of. Yesterday, I finally closed that process with the closing of the house and I drove home with happy tears in my eyes because I just created my own happily ever after. I really reflected on all I’ve gone through over the last year and a half, and I couldn’t be prouder of myself for my growth and my strength along the way.
When faced with so many life changes in my life from losing my mom, becoming a new mom without my mom, becoming a single mom, and going through a divorce, I have had to continually find my strength to keep moving forward. Part of that journey has been allowing myself to grieve each part of the process which provided me with the space and grace to move through each challenge a little easier. Grieving each stage has given me the space to really reflect about what I want and what I need and has given me the strength and resiliency to go after those things. And now I’m so thankful to say that I’ve created my fresh start, that I didn’t let the pain and the turmoil of the past hold me down and keep me back. I decided instead to break free of the chains of the past, to let go of the future I hoped for myself and instead create my own future, one that was right for me and for my daughter. And I’ve never felt more whole or proud or free. Every time something happens, I often wonder how I’ll get through, and yet somehow I do, even better than I hoped.
I can’t wait for Charlotte and I to start our new journey in our new home. Our safe haven, our space to enjoy and let loose and truly feel happiness, our space without bad memories or tough experiences. Just a space that is ours and ours alone.
I could have chosen to stay stuck in the past and the pain, but instead I chose a happier and healthier future. I chose me. I chose a new beginning. And you can too. You aren’t stuck, even if it feels that way. You can choose you. You can trust that you are strong enough to see the other side of this pain and have faith that everything will work out even better than you imagined. You can do hard things. You have before. You can again. I hope you choose a new beginning for yourself and know that even though new beginnings are scary, if it means there is hope, happiness, healing, growth and safety on the other side, I hope you run after that new beginning with everything you’ve got inside of you. Because you’re worthy of that new beginning. You are worthy of feeling free.
I’m so thankful I’ve continued to hold onto my worth and chased after my new beginning. The future is unknown, but it’s bright. For you and for me.
You deserve the brightest and most loving new beginning. And once you reach that new beginning, you deserve to feel proud of yourself for all you endured to get to that point and to recognize all of the times you felt stuck or unsure, but you kept fighting towards that dream anyway. You’ve got this. Keep going.
Xo,
Be Beautifully Simply You